The day is only half over, but I'd like to report how I've been adulting:
- I've applied for a job. Brings my total number of jobs applied for to 2. 2 is better than 0, but it will not gain me employment by the start of September.
- I vacuumed. Yay! Dishes are clean. Yay!
- Bought food supplies and cat fud.
- Ate b-fast and lunch.
It is time for Writing. My goal for today is 1100 words, but primarily I need to achieve an Outline for the novel. I have a notion of plot in my head. I need to write it out and set not only Word Count deadlines, but also Story Line deadlines.
I am a fearful woman. I am afraid I will not have enough money to pay bills. I fear I will always be in debt, living just beyond my means. I fear I will remain nothing more than a hack; a dreamer. I'm so sick of being a hack. I fear that life has spent the entire year throwing chances at me like a bully at a water balloon fight and I've been fumbling and dropping balloons and missing every throw. At least I've identified one of the facets of my failure is a lack of confidence.
I gave up too early, I thought that it didn't matter whether I achieved my goal because nothing would've come of it even if I did. So wrong. So very, very wrong.
Time to stop bemoaning and get to getting to it.Edit: OMG, you guys. The job I submitted my application to earlier today responded back to set up an interview at an employee cattle-call. For next week! I made it past their HR robot, the first hurdle of any job-seeker. At least the next step is to interview with a real, live human person. The response says that the job is $ 12.75+/hr which you have to admit is pretty darn close to my minimum of $ 13/hr. If they offer raises the longer you work at the company or on the basis of job performance, this will be a viable job.
You guys do realize this is the first time I have applied for a better job whilst I still have a job, right? I am anxious. So very, very anxious and a little bit terrified. This could mean an extra $ 2,000 / year for me. Better, but still not quite enough.
How do I get a job that will pay me $500/week that doesn't involve contact with irate customers?
I've completed my Character Sheets like a boss!