Progress Report: Hunting for a Life

[nepenthe]

 
The day is only half over, but I'd like to report how I've been adulting:

• I've applied for a job. Brings my total number of jobs applied for to 2. 2 is better than 0, but it will not gain me employment by the start of September.
• I vacuumed. Yay! Dishes are clean. Yay!
• Bought food supplies and cat fud. 
• Ate b-fast and lunch.

It is time for Writing. My goal for today is 1100 words, but primarily I need to achieve an Outline for the novel. I have a notion of plot in my head. I need to write it out and set not only Word Count deadlines, but also Story Line deadlines.

I am a fearful woman. I am afraid I will not have enough money to pay bills. I fear I will always be in debt, living just beyond my means. I fear I will remain nothing more than a hack; a dreamer. I'm so sick of being a hack. I fear that life has spent the entire year throwing chances at me like a bully at a water balloon fight and I've been fumbling and dropping balloons and missing every throw. At least I've identified one of the facets of my failure is a lack of confidence.

I gave up too early, I thought that it didn't matter whether I achieved my goal because nothing would've come of it even if I did. So wrong. So very, very wrong. 

Time to stop bemoaning and get to getting to it.

Edit: OMG, you guys. The job I submitted my application to earlier today responded back to set up an interview at an employee cattle-call. For next week!  I made it past their HR robot, the first hurdle of any job-seeker. At least the next step is to interview with a real, live human person. The response says that the job is $ 12.75+/hr which you have to admit is pretty darn close to my minimum of $ 13/hr. If they offer raises the longer you work at the company or on the basis of job performance, this will be a viable job.

You guys do realize this is the first time I have applied for a better job whilst I still have a job, right? I am anxious. So very, very anxious and a little bit terrified. This could mean an extra $ 2,000 / year for me. Better, but still not quite enough.

How do I get a job that will pay me $500/week that doesn't involve contact with irate customers?

I've completed my Character Sheets like a boss! 

Comments

[finch]

You are awesome! And productive! Go you!

[nepenthe]

A CHEERLEADER! Thank you! I'll scrounge for any and all crumbs of support.

And I don't say it enough on your journal, but GO YOU! I've noticed you've been churning out fanfic and writing and even though we're far away, it's heartening to know you're chugging away.

[finch]

Tragically it's not really fanfic; if it was I'd probably get more comments. XD

[nepenthe]

Awe, bummer. I thought you were working on a Pacific Rim, Evangelion thing (goes to your blog, sees it posted, yay!). I will drink my morning coffee and go read that.

[finch]

Oh, yeah, it is. But not enough of a fanfic of any one thing that I feel I can post it anywhere. XD

[nepenthe]

It is important to write commercial fiction. It's important to write fanfiction. But often, it's important to write fiction that you need to write, even if it's an audience of you. Anywho, I thought it was alright as a mashup between original and fan fic.