Done

[nepenthe]

 
Yeah. Those headphones I just bought?

Took them out. Tried them out. They work great! Turned my back for five seconds while I fried up an egg for dinner and when I turn back, Coco's up on the table, gnawing on them.

Owned for no more than a few hours before Coco destroyed them.

I know, I know. It's my fault for leaving them out when I know this was how the last pair met their end. I know she's a cat and doesn't know any better. I know she's bored and just wants to DESTROY KILL DESTROY. Her prime directive is to seek out things to knock over, to shred, to chew, to ruin. She doesn't know the ordeal that I went through to buy those fucking things, doesn't understand that I have to pay cashy money, of which I have next to nil. Intellectually, I know she can't possibly be doing it on purpose, but it feels calculated.

But I am so on my last thread tonight. 

Am seriously thinking Coco has to be re-homed as much as I despise the thought. But I can't afford to buy a new pair of headphones every goddamn day. Or always buying trash bags. Or sanitary pads. Or the silk shirt she ruined because she wanted to climb the clothes hanging up in my closet. Or the cat toys she's constantly destroying. Or ensuring I'm not going to get back the deposit on the apartment by tearing holes in the carpet and somehow chipping off the bottom corner of one wall. It seems that every time I take away something for her to rip apart (trash bags), she escalates to tearing up the carpet or biting Ampersand. This is the THIRD time this evening I've had to put her in the other room and you know what? I think she'll be staying there. Not necessarily because she deserves it, but because I can't fucking take her bullshit.

Will call Pam tomorrow to seek behavioral advice, and if that doesn't work out, Coco can find a new home.

Sad. Miserable. Feel like a bad person for doing this to Coco, for putting Ampersand through this shit. But so fucking angry.

Comments

[finch]

It sounds like Coco just needs to be in a single cat home. That's not your fault. You did your best to give a home to a cat that needed it.

[nepenthe]

I really want both of them to get along and be happy. When Coco is a good girl and cuddly or playful, she's my Chere Coco Fluffers. When she's a brat, she's all brat. I thought I was getting a breakthrough earlier this week when Coco eased off and actually made attempts at grooming Ampersand rather than attacking her. Maybe it's just something these past couple of days that has set her off? I don't know. Still, am going to talk with Pam--the vet--about behavioral correction and try--I would rather not give her up. But it's not impossible to find a good home that will suit her better--a household where she's an only cat with several humans to love her.